I should be jumping for joy at how close we are getting.. but my snow free halloween was a big crappy mess and november didnt kick in too well either.. The days are dragging and the furbabies are not helping. Friday night i realized teddy must have brought fleas into the house and all three were infected. Saturday I spent about 7-8 hours vacuuming, doing 5 loads of laundry, stripping the beds and cleaning the matresses and allll the furniture. Sat night i had to drop teddy off for his flea bath ($$$) and do the two kitties by hand. let me tell you good thing riley isnt home cause between the dog and cats im covered in bruises and cuts/ scratches. (though i wish he was here to help). I was beyond tired and barely got to talk to my oh so lovely boyfriend who hurt his ankle...
Sunday morning i woke up and teddy had peed in his crate. As if the smell and mess wasnt bad enough after i justttt cleaned everything... i was so frazzled i accidently used CLR instead of the pet carpet cleaner (both yellow bottles) to clean it and now it needs to be red-done. Later that day we go to pet class where teddy peeed all over the christmas display, got demoted back to basics and now we are the proud owner of a gentle leader- my saving grace, though a pain to put on!! We walked out later and lets just say teddy made a mess all over the parking lot. so we decided to check with the vets... An hour and $$$$ later teddy now has a viral intestinal issue, needs special food, and is on to Rxs. THIS IS WHY IM NOT A DOG PERSON. Finally today we stopped having accidents but i have to keep giving him his medicine. Later that day the kittties escaped from iso so i now have to retreat everything tomorrow and since they are still itching restreat them as well.
Needless to say im stressed out of my mind and cant handle too much more of this on my own. Dont confuse my stress for "needyness" please because clearly ive done it all. Ive made it through 5 months of hell and counting.. but sometimes a girl just needs a little moral support ya know? :/
Today, Ive also learned that there are some things about these past 5 months that may haunt me for a long time. Things I dont like to think about or be reminded about. I dont know if talking about it would help at all.. id like to hope so. I just hope the next year is great enough to atleas push all the bad memories to the far back of my mind. wow well thats the most negative ive been on here in a while so ill throw some positive out there..
Ive had a great time and great support from my girls down here. Im excited to keep meeting knew people. Ive enjoyed all the little things like cooking together, shopping and making surprises for our men. I really dont know what I would do with out them. Its been really great to have people who know EXACTLY how you are feeling and what you are going through. Dont get me wrong I love dearly and miss all my friends from home and they always have and im sure always will be super supportive and caring. but dealing with deployment is truely a unique situation. So ladies, thank you!
Ive also gotten to enjoy several things since my last post. As mentioned leaving el sal sucked but ive certainly tried to keep busy. I got to spend a weekend with my god parents and ashley which was awesome. Drinks on the river and seeing dolphins in the river. Some great food and great laughs. I got to go to my first jaguars game which was totally free and oh so much fun. I will post pictures tonight! Weve been able to get together for other homecoming deployment related things such as our first meeting of the homecoming committee. Im excited to get to work on that stuff to make it seem real! Fingers crossed pending final paperwork we have a new house in middleburg (rental for now) that i love and cant wait to make it our home!
In closing, (boy this was a long one and trust me i couldve gone on forever) I hope the next time the calender says "1" I will no longer be a loner. that is all <3
