Well here we are. tomorrow marks 5 weeks down. Tuesday was 4 weeks until the big test. We just had our first real cant talk for multiple days experience and it was quite unpleasant. Never knowing when your going to get to talk again sucks. Right now Im so over deployment, cause once again were not getting to talk. I think thats the most frustrating feeling. I could send him a million messages but unless he takes the chance to check, it means nothing :/
I did get a cute surprise last week that i loved though. I would post a pic but not sure how to get pics on here from my ipod!
I wanted to distract myself with a trip to the dog park but we have now officially reached afternoon thunderstorm season! We did get to go the other day andd got ice cream to celebrate his graduation form intermediate class! sometimes he still kills me though. As mad as I get I look into his pathetic eyes, and i forgive him. just like his daddy. (i swear he taught him to do that) Instead I guess Ill do some extra studying today to get ahead for the weekend perhaps. Looking forward to some much neeeded time with my battle buddy Ashley! Preferably some sun. For someone thats lived in Florida for 2 months in the summer. Im still soo pale. Damn you bar exam!
In other news I've slowly began to realize things that say "i'm not in new england anymore!"
-I saw my first wild snake down here, thanks teddy.. i had nightmares last night that combined that with my bar prep studies.. so sad
-battle cockroach has been ongoing for over 2 weeks now. I think I've made progress but a few living ones still sneak up daily :(
-i've seen multiple bumper stickers referring to liberals as "not people" and "how do you like your change now"
-ive learned also from my studies you can marry your first cousins and adopted family members (this could explain a lot)
-theres no district courts down here.. its ACTUALLY county.
-after thunderstorms rather then the temp drastically dropping it shoots back up
-in the summer down there, the only comfortable time to take the dog for a walk is midnight
-you can indeed get sunburned after 4pm.. when its cloudy
-last but not least "ya'll" has accidentally slipped out.. riley's mom told me i'm already starting to pick it up and sound a little southern..which i refer to as sounding a little stupid.. must fight it.. Still haven't switched form damn to dang..
..and this is only north florida.. thank god i didn't move to alabama or something
now the dog is about to dive through the sliding glass door to get the critter out there.. oh boy.. life..
i need my other half back, or at least getting to talk to him would be nice.
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Sunday, June 12, 2011
2 weeks down, too many to go.
I should post in this more on my happy days too incase anyone reads this and thinks i just completely fail at life. next. time.
just over 2 weeks in to my first deployment its safe to say im still struggling mentally, but growing and now struggling physically. boo. damn you third floor apartment. I should have stuck with the tiny amount of groceries I had when I had to suddenly rush home for a failed skype date. Yup, right now im pretty sure I've sprained or strained my pelvic muscles. The initial burt of pain was the most pain I have ever felt Im pretty sure. I didnt think anything could top the pain of the separation of deployment but boy that sure did. If childbirth is anything like that... well i don't know. It's another one of those things where being alone in a new place, knowing who or if you have anyone to call is probably even scarier then the pain itself. I am thankful for beatrice for coming over to help me out!
Now I use up my strength taking the dog to pee. Sitting in one position feels amazing. However all I can think about is horrible things among those is "how much extra time will i be studying this week to make up for it??" Oh how I cannot wait till this dreadful test is over. it really is one of those times where not having the man around the house REALLY stinks. Not that I need a man to take care of me, after all Im a woman!!! But to have someone else deal with bozo.. Not to mention the buggies. eww. must go complain about those tomorrow. I lost a battle with them too so now they must pay.
One battle I still think I face which if probably atleast partly my own fault for overthinking everything is sometimes I still feel like an option instead of a priority. Im thankful for all the time we do get to spend talking which I'm sure is more then most other couples going through this but its so hard to think about them having a free day and you sitting around waiting. (Normally I'd atleast try to find something to do but given my semi-immobility thats out for today) I know I probably look at it the wrong way but its difficult to overcome. Despite our history of being long distance, alot of this is still all new to me and Im struggling to learn the ways still. Im struggling with a constant emotional battle with myself. (having fieldhouse temper within me does not help in times like these) All I can say is be the next (and FINAL) deployment, I hope to be and should be a pro. Bring on homecoming!
just over 2 weeks in to my first deployment its safe to say im still struggling mentally, but growing and now struggling physically. boo. damn you third floor apartment. I should have stuck with the tiny amount of groceries I had when I had to suddenly rush home for a failed skype date. Yup, right now im pretty sure I've sprained or strained my pelvic muscles. The initial burt of pain was the most pain I have ever felt Im pretty sure. I didnt think anything could top the pain of the separation of deployment but boy that sure did. If childbirth is anything like that... well i don't know. It's another one of those things where being alone in a new place, knowing who or if you have anyone to call is probably even scarier then the pain itself. I am thankful for beatrice for coming over to help me out!
Now I use up my strength taking the dog to pee. Sitting in one position feels amazing. However all I can think about is horrible things among those is "how much extra time will i be studying this week to make up for it??" Oh how I cannot wait till this dreadful test is over. it really is one of those times where not having the man around the house REALLY stinks. Not that I need a man to take care of me, after all Im a woman!!! But to have someone else deal with bozo.. Not to mention the buggies. eww. must go complain about those tomorrow. I lost a battle with them too so now they must pay.
One battle I still think I face which if probably atleast partly my own fault for overthinking everything is sometimes I still feel like an option instead of a priority. Im thankful for all the time we do get to spend talking which I'm sure is more then most other couples going through this but its so hard to think about them having a free day and you sitting around waiting. (Normally I'd atleast try to find something to do but given my semi-immobility thats out for today) I know I probably look at it the wrong way but its difficult to overcome. Despite our history of being long distance, alot of this is still all new to me and Im struggling to learn the ways still. Im struggling with a constant emotional battle with myself. (having fieldhouse temper within me does not help in times like these) All I can say is be the next (and FINAL) deployment, I hope to be and should be a pro. Bring on homecoming!
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