Well now that my super sweet almost 4MONTH! old is soundly sleeping through the night (and in bed by 730), and since my housework is done for the day.. ok its not you know what i just need a break!! Anyways I decided to reflect a little on the past few months and share our latest news. Funny I always look forward to reading other mommy friends blogs and notice they dont always post that often, well clearly now I know why. I havent posted since Emmas one month birthday and She will be 4 months in 10 days.
Well to start with, at emmas two week appt, when she was 12 pounds and 23 in long the Doctors notice some slight potential she might have torticollis. i didnt think or notice much of it until a few weeks ago. it seems to have progressed. For those that dont know what that it, its a condition in babies where they favor turning there head to one side. it can cause flat head and his displasia (sp?) so I began getting nervous. We have an appt to meet with a doctor in 2 weeks.. (thanks government shut down, it took me 2 days just to get that and that was the best they could do..) But like any Momma, naturally im worried. I just want to be normal. I see other babies her age holding her head up so well and sitting in there bumbos and and she just cant yet :( I read up on it and Im doing what I can to help her and it does seem to be helping a little. She favors her right so Im trying to do alot to get her to look to her left or atleast straight ahead. My poor sweet baby!
Aside from that, Emma is doing just wonderful. She can hold her head up decently but it tilts to the side, but she is a littler chunker steadily gaining weight for sure! I get so sad she keeps outgrowing all her clothes and she has so many im lucky she can wear anything more than once! but I just love everything about her. Her eyes will just make you melt. She totally her her daddys eyes but aside from that she is looking more and more like me :) She started laughing a few weeks ago and when you hear it you cant help but smile and laugh too! Im working on getting a video. Also her grip has really strengthened. She can actually hold and play with her toys. She especially loves her spotty, 50 cent claw machine dragon from aunty jane and uncle and and sox the sock monkey from her aunty rachel. She has also gotten really good at grabbing my hair and yanking it. I just cannot wait for Riley to get home and meet her and fall in love with her just as i have. I swear she recognizes his voice from our skype dates.
I sadly have also gone back to work full time. I cried and cried at the thought of it but I know we can live alot more comfortably having the extra income and I can spoil my little princess alot more. I still fear missing any of her firsts and I often find myself at work just looking through all my pictures of her and missing her like crazy but it makes every other moment we spend together so much sweeter. And did I mention for once, things played out in my favor and I found the ABSOLUTE best babysitter on sittercity for military families. She is a retired Navy wife (her husband a retired chief, served 23 years), mother of 3 and grandmother of 2. Emma goes to her house and I just feel like I never have to worry. She sends me pictures of her and except for two half days where her grandson comes, Emma gets one on one care AND I only pay $125 a week! Yes thats $110 dollars a week cheaper then the cheapest daycare where babies literally lay on the floor all day. She is even making emmas halloween costume- the little mermaid and its so cute I could die!!!
so now my days go something like this"
6am wake up (unless emma decides sooner)
get ready for work
feed furbabies
pack lunches, bottles, diaper bag
nurse and change emma
715am drop emma off at daycare
8-4 workd
445pm pick emma up
5pm arive home in time to
nurse emma, feed furbabies,
make dinner, hopefully a little playtime or a walk with teddy
bath, book, bottle, bed by 7/730
then commence all the housework, laundry,
cleaning bottles, prepping lunch, clean, yardwork,
lucky if i can pump and shower and be in bed by 10
..this routine gets old and tiring very fast.. i would like my husband back..
okok im falling asleep here so the next new chapter, for which a titled this about, NO were not pregnant again (impossible and dear god no thank you!!!) Riley got new orders and it looks like we will be pcs'ing (permenant change of station) for the first time. Thats right folks we are off to point mugu california, right outside of malibu. He called me at 11pm at night to tell me when he found out. I think i cried for about 3 days straight once he told and (almost as much as I cried when i found out about bahrain) and some more for another week everytime I thought about it. Like everything else in our crazy hectic like Im reaching the point of acceptance and getting ready to go with the flow. It brings so much to do and I feel like I have even more on my already full plate with him being gone and it makes me wish I didnt start back to work but im working on my supermom skills. so in the words of I love Lucy "CALIFORNIA HERE WE COME" Still have lots to figure out and lots to plan but we have until July 2014 to figure it out. More to come on this later. time for me to finish what I gotta do and sleep a little before my alarm goes off!
Wednesday, October 9, 2013
Friday, July 19, 2013
The first Month
-Of Emma and the year long stretch of deployment-
Emma is officially one month old already. Time is flying by! While shes napping peacefully in her swing I wanted to write down her birth story.
Just 3 days after we dropped Riley off at the airport the early signs of labor showed their face on friday night. I called my mom and she booked a flight before she even got off the phone. So the next day by 10am she was here. The very impatient part of the waiting game began. We ran all the errands i could think of and did enough walking and more spicy food eating. Finally Sunday afternoon, fathers day I started having contractions. By sunday night they became pretty regular but i insisted on getting my brownie sundae from DQ for dinner before we went to the hospital to get checked. Well worth it. We got to the hospital probably around 830/9 that night. My contractions were 3-5 mins apart, but werent painful. I was only 2cm so they sent me home. The next day by mid afternoon I was having very painful contractions so back we went. They checked me again but I was only at 3 and they still wouldn't admit me as a cried in pain. instead the put me on a "morphine rest" aka they super drugged me up and sent me home with ambien. I was so out of it my speech was slurred and I could barely walk. We got home and I slept through the night. I took an ambien in the morning to help ease the pain and dozed off all morning again. By 6:45 that night, tuesday, my water finally broke. So back to the hospital we went and third times a charm. They admitted me, and by 930 I was getting the epidural. At this time they were predicting 7lb baby by 4am. By midnight they were starting the pitocin and actually had to break another bag of my water. But I was still progressing slowly. By 330 or so my epi was already wearing off and I was so uncomfortable. They had to keep coming in to adjust me and adjust the meds but it wasn't really helping. By 5am I was miserable and still barely 5cm. This went on all morning untill 1115 when they checked and I was still barely at 6.
When they told me that I knew exactly what was coming next because it has been going on 18 hours since my water broke. I broke down into hysterics as I DID NOT want surgery. They told me i oculd wait two more hours and see but at this right I knew it wasnt going to happen. Baby was also very displaced all the way to the left side. I talked to my mom and Ashley (who drove all night form pensacola to be there for me!) and decided to let them go ahead and prep for a c section but I couldnt use the epi because i could feel way too much. So there I sat in active labor, letting my epi wear off so I could get a spinal instead (though I begged them to just put me under). The second I agreed though the whole L & D floor was running around to prep me. But it was well over an hour before I headed for the OR which seemed to give me far too much time to think. I was exhausted, and starving and at this point I was even cut off from ice chips. Finally around 1 I headed for the OR to get the spinal. That took forever. I was weak and in so much pain and had so much pressure from her head. All I wanted to do was cry. It took well over 30 mins to get the spinal in (Dr. Yoder, the one doc name ill never forget) was a saint. once it was in I was still so nervous about feeling things but he reassured they'd never cut until they knew I was good. Finally, they let me mom in but apparently they had already cut me open. bless my mom through this all she has seen every awful inch of me right down to my insides. Within seconds of her sitting down next to me we heard crying.. well screaming. Our little Emma had a great set of lungs and a full head of hair! She was over 8lbs and it was then they realized and told me she probably would have never fit down the birth canal. I barely got to see her before the took her away but i cried tears f joy. It seemed like it took forever to finish the procedure which was apparently because I had lost alot of blood. i began to hemorrhage and was borderline needing a transfusion. I could here the suctioning and Im pretty sure I only didnt freak out because I was completely exhausted. Finally I could feel them tugging to sew me up.
At first all I could think of was eating but within minutes while getting ready to go to recovery I got super nauseous and started shaking. By the time they got me back to my room with my baby I was shaking so bad they had to hold me down and all I could do was watching other people hold my baby. I couldnt even talk because when i tried I just bit my tongue. Finally they got me meds to stop the reaction which was brought on from the loss of blood mixed with hormones and lots of meds and I could hold my sweet little angel.
i was so thankful to have my mom there for my recovery. I had a couple of breakdowns as I felt super useless to my daughter. I couldnt even get up to change her diaper in the hospital. This wasnt the recovery plan I had pictured but my mom was a lifesaver. When she left just shy of the 3 weeks mark all i could so was cry.
Now here we are at the one month mark and I cant believe its here already (and that shes slept through all this). She is an amazing little baby and weve learned some tricks on getting things done with just the two of us. I so miss Riley so very much and every day think about the day until he finally gets to meet our sweet baby girl. This morning she smiled a real smile for the first time and my heart just melted. I could seriously stare at this girl all day
Emma is officially one month old already. Time is flying by! While shes napping peacefully in her swing I wanted to write down her birth story.
Just 3 days after we dropped Riley off at the airport the early signs of labor showed their face on friday night. I called my mom and she booked a flight before she even got off the phone. So the next day by 10am she was here. The very impatient part of the waiting game began. We ran all the errands i could think of and did enough walking and more spicy food eating. Finally Sunday afternoon, fathers day I started having contractions. By sunday night they became pretty regular but i insisted on getting my brownie sundae from DQ for dinner before we went to the hospital to get checked. Well worth it. We got to the hospital probably around 830/9 that night. My contractions were 3-5 mins apart, but werent painful. I was only 2cm so they sent me home. The next day by mid afternoon I was having very painful contractions so back we went. They checked me again but I was only at 3 and they still wouldn't admit me as a cried in pain. instead the put me on a "morphine rest" aka they super drugged me up and sent me home with ambien. I was so out of it my speech was slurred and I could barely walk. We got home and I slept through the night. I took an ambien in the morning to help ease the pain and dozed off all morning again. By 6:45 that night, tuesday, my water finally broke. So back to the hospital we went and third times a charm. They admitted me, and by 930 I was getting the epidural. At this time they were predicting 7lb baby by 4am. By midnight they were starting the pitocin and actually had to break another bag of my water. But I was still progressing slowly. By 330 or so my epi was already wearing off and I was so uncomfortable. They had to keep coming in to adjust me and adjust the meds but it wasn't really helping. By 5am I was miserable and still barely 5cm. This went on all morning untill 1115 when they checked and I was still barely at 6.
When they told me that I knew exactly what was coming next because it has been going on 18 hours since my water broke. I broke down into hysterics as I DID NOT want surgery. They told me i oculd wait two more hours and see but at this right I knew it wasnt going to happen. Baby was also very displaced all the way to the left side. I talked to my mom and Ashley (who drove all night form pensacola to be there for me!) and decided to let them go ahead and prep for a c section but I couldnt use the epi because i could feel way too much. So there I sat in active labor, letting my epi wear off so I could get a spinal instead (though I begged them to just put me under). The second I agreed though the whole L & D floor was running around to prep me. But it was well over an hour before I headed for the OR which seemed to give me far too much time to think. I was exhausted, and starving and at this point I was even cut off from ice chips. Finally around 1 I headed for the OR to get the spinal. That took forever. I was weak and in so much pain and had so much pressure from her head. All I wanted to do was cry. It took well over 30 mins to get the spinal in (Dr. Yoder, the one doc name ill never forget) was a saint. once it was in I was still so nervous about feeling things but he reassured they'd never cut until they knew I was good. Finally, they let me mom in but apparently they had already cut me open. bless my mom through this all she has seen every awful inch of me right down to my insides. Within seconds of her sitting down next to me we heard crying.. well screaming. Our little Emma had a great set of lungs and a full head of hair! She was over 8lbs and it was then they realized and told me she probably would have never fit down the birth canal. I barely got to see her before the took her away but i cried tears f joy. It seemed like it took forever to finish the procedure which was apparently because I had lost alot of blood. i began to hemorrhage and was borderline needing a transfusion. I could here the suctioning and Im pretty sure I only didnt freak out because I was completely exhausted. Finally I could feel them tugging to sew me up.
At first all I could think of was eating but within minutes while getting ready to go to recovery I got super nauseous and started shaking. By the time they got me back to my room with my baby I was shaking so bad they had to hold me down and all I could do was watching other people hold my baby. I couldnt even talk because when i tried I just bit my tongue. Finally they got me meds to stop the reaction which was brought on from the loss of blood mixed with hormones and lots of meds and I could hold my sweet little angel.
i was so thankful to have my mom there for my recovery. I had a couple of breakdowns as I felt super useless to my daughter. I couldnt even get up to change her diaper in the hospital. This wasnt the recovery plan I had pictured but my mom was a lifesaver. When she left just shy of the 3 weeks mark all i could so was cry.
Now here we are at the one month mark and I cant believe its here already (and that shes slept through all this). She is an amazing little baby and weve learned some tricks on getting things done with just the two of us. I so miss Riley so very much and every day think about the day until he finally gets to meet our sweet baby girl. This morning she smiled a real smile for the first time and my heart just melted. I could seriously stare at this girl all day
Sunday, June 9, 2013
False Alarms/ my letter to Emma
Well here we are just rapidly approaching our next D day (not due date although at this point thats not far off either). These few weeks have simply flown by and each passing day (with no real sign of Emma) has been bittersweet. (While I appreciate the asking no they will not induce me and they will certainly not change his D date) We have has several close calls and some pretty serious contractions almost every night but alas no baby girl yet. Im trying so hard to keep it together and be strong for myself, for Emma and for Riley but its so hard not to breakdown. I want to scream about how unfair it is that we have to go through this, especially after just having gone through 6 months apart. I want to curl up in a ball and cry till I run out of tears. But instead i have to keep telling myself we were given this life because we can handle it, and we've overcome so many challanges so far that we will just keep getting stronger and stronger.
I decided since there is a pretty good chance at this point Emma will be waiting quite some time to meet her daddy I wanted to write something down I could read to her and we could smile and laugh about until we get to be a "real" family all together again.
My dear sweet little Emma,
Every night since your daddy got home we have been waiting for you to come and meet us. We both our so ready to hold you in our arms. Especially your daddy cause he was a little scared about touching you in my belly. But it seems, you must be alot like your daddy and you want to make us wait, so it will be a while till you get to meet him. You probably wont even realize it but I think about it all the time. I promise you though, hes worth the wait.
Your daddy is an amazingly strong man who takes such good care of me and already takes such good care of you too. He helped mommy get everything ready for you. In the short time he was here, he made plenty of late night runs for ice cream and red velvet cake. He put together the swing you swing in, the bouncer you bounce in and carriage you ride around in. He helped mommy do so much to get the house ready for you.
My favorite thing about your daddy is how much he can make me laugh and how in the saddest of times he always manages to bring a smile back to my face. Hes wiped my tears, told me funny stories and always reminds me that everything will be ok. Im sure as you grow, he will do the same for you. I promise to show you lots of pictures and tell you lots of stories, especially at bedtime so we can dream of him.
So for now its just me, you and your fur-brothers but trust me, we will be counting the days until your daddy is back home and we can make new memories together, but until then I wanted have something we could turn back to and look at, read, and remember to smile. We just have to remember its not his fault he cant be here. He has to go work somewhere else because hes just so good at what he does, but when its over he will comeback to us, forever this time.
We both love you so much already sweet Emma, and I want you to remember: your daddy is my hero, my strength, and my best friend, and I hope someday he is yours too.
I decided since there is a pretty good chance at this point Emma will be waiting quite some time to meet her daddy I wanted to write something down I could read to her and we could smile and laugh about until we get to be a "real" family all together again.
My dear sweet little Emma,
Every night since your daddy got home we have been waiting for you to come and meet us. We both our so ready to hold you in our arms. Especially your daddy cause he was a little scared about touching you in my belly. But it seems, you must be alot like your daddy and you want to make us wait, so it will be a while till you get to meet him. You probably wont even realize it but I think about it all the time. I promise you though, hes worth the wait.
Your daddy is an amazingly strong man who takes such good care of me and already takes such good care of you too. He helped mommy get everything ready for you. In the short time he was here, he made plenty of late night runs for ice cream and red velvet cake. He put together the swing you swing in, the bouncer you bounce in and carriage you ride around in. He helped mommy do so much to get the house ready for you.
My favorite thing about your daddy is how much he can make me laugh and how in the saddest of times he always manages to bring a smile back to my face. Hes wiped my tears, told me funny stories and always reminds me that everything will be ok. Im sure as you grow, he will do the same for you. I promise to show you lots of pictures and tell you lots of stories, especially at bedtime so we can dream of him.
So for now its just me, you and your fur-brothers but trust me, we will be counting the days until your daddy is back home and we can make new memories together, but until then I wanted have something we could turn back to and look at, read, and remember to smile. We just have to remember its not his fault he cant be here. He has to go work somewhere else because hes just so good at what he does, but when its over he will comeback to us, forever this time.
We both love you so much already sweet Emma, and I want you to remember: your daddy is my hero, my strength, and my best friend, and I hope someday he is yours too.
Tuesday, May 14, 2013
So. Today I am updating from my new Google nexus that my dear sweet husband got me for my birthday :-) I am loving it! I just downloaded the kindle app And all my books transfered. Can't wait to get some new ones! Well it was my birthday and it was nothing special but still pretty nice. I had dinner with some wonderful friends and now I'm impatiently awaiting the best gift ever I willy get tomorrow:-)
So as far as miss Emma is concerned she is certainly getting sound up and ready to meet us all. She gave us a good scare a few weeks ago where I ended up in l&d. I spent a lovely 6 hours there and after 3 bags of fluids and a couple of injections they were able to stop the contractions. Boy am I dreading real labor!!
Tomorrow we will officially be at 8 months! And next week we get to see our pretty little angel on an ultrasound for the first time in 16 weeks and it will be then first time daddy will be there for it :-)
I will update more soon but I can't believe how soon we will be getting to meet our precious little girl!!!
So as far as miss Emma is concerned she is certainly getting sound up and ready to meet us all. She gave us a good scare a few weeks ago where I ended up in l&d. I spent a lovely 6 hours there and after 3 bags of fluids and a couple of injections they were able to stop the contractions. Boy am I dreading real labor!!
Tomorrow we will officially be at 8 months! And next week we get to see our pretty little angel on an ultrasound for the first time in 16 weeks and it will be then first time daddy will be there for it :-)
I will update more soon but I can't believe how soon we will be getting to meet our precious little girl!!!
Sunday, April 7, 2013
Third Trimester!
I keep telling myself i will post in this more but clearly im failing! However maybe ill have more luck this trimester. Im two weeks in and have just over 10 weeks left till we meet our little princess but hopefully less so daddy can meet her too! (as im typing this with my laptop propped up on my belly she keeps kicking it!)
Life has been crazy but I must say its going by pretty fast! Lets see first we had all the issues with the lawn and our neighbors. I couldnt believe how much I cried over that letter! Normally things like that have just been making me angry but I think I was also overtired after working all day then sitting through baby budgeting class. Which by the way was a pretty good class! got lots of tips, a great site for coupons and more free baby stuff (not that emma really needs more!)
Just after that our refrigerator died! How sad was I at 6 months preggo when i found all my ice cream melted :( So after sinking all this money into lawn maitnance and repairing our irragation system, we then had to buy a new fridge. We kept it pretty simple but im quite happy with our new fridge!
Ive also been trying to get other stuff done around the house, mostly in Emmas room getting clothes washed, stuff hung up, things put together and figuring out what I still need to get! But boy I can wait for her daddy to get home and he gets to put all the fun things together (i.e. the swing, bouncer, highchair, carriage..)
I also just had my my 28 week appt and glucose test! Emmas heart beat was wonderful at 153 and i'm hoping no news is good news on the glucose test! I don't think i could cut sweets from my preggo diet and i certainly cant give myself insulin. I did talk to my doctor about my aching back and found out that my left hip bone has become mis-aligned and is tilted forward and is actually making my left leg slightly longer then my right.. hence a very soar Kelly. He did an adjustment for me. The night i got it I was in so much pain I couldnt even fathom labor being worse but by the next morning I was great! I am very much looking forward to my next one!
so here I am at 29 weeks wearing basically only maternity clothes at this point (ok and rileys clothes when im just at home/ for bed) Im getting so so so excited to meet her but more importantly for Riley to be home! I miss that man like CRAZY!! Next week will be our 1 year wedding anniversary. Time has just been flying by. I cant wait for many more years to spend with him and our newly growing family! <3
Life has been crazy but I must say its going by pretty fast! Lets see first we had all the issues with the lawn and our neighbors. I couldnt believe how much I cried over that letter! Normally things like that have just been making me angry but I think I was also overtired after working all day then sitting through baby budgeting class. Which by the way was a pretty good class! got lots of tips, a great site for coupons and more free baby stuff (not that emma really needs more!)
Just after that our refrigerator died! How sad was I at 6 months preggo when i found all my ice cream melted :( So after sinking all this money into lawn maitnance and repairing our irragation system, we then had to buy a new fridge. We kept it pretty simple but im quite happy with our new fridge!
Ive also been trying to get other stuff done around the house, mostly in Emmas room getting clothes washed, stuff hung up, things put together and figuring out what I still need to get! But boy I can wait for her daddy to get home and he gets to put all the fun things together (i.e. the swing, bouncer, highchair, carriage..)
I also just had my my 28 week appt and glucose test! Emmas heart beat was wonderful at 153 and i'm hoping no news is good news on the glucose test! I don't think i could cut sweets from my preggo diet and i certainly cant give myself insulin. I did talk to my doctor about my aching back and found out that my left hip bone has become mis-aligned and is tilted forward and is actually making my left leg slightly longer then my right.. hence a very soar Kelly. He did an adjustment for me. The night i got it I was in so much pain I couldnt even fathom labor being worse but by the next morning I was great! I am very much looking forward to my next one!
so here I am at 29 weeks wearing basically only maternity clothes at this point (ok and rileys clothes when im just at home/ for bed) Im getting so so so excited to meet her but more importantly for Riley to be home! I miss that man like CRAZY!! Next week will be our 1 year wedding anniversary. Time has just been flying by. I cant wait for many more years to spend with him and our newly growing family! <3
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
Emma, Her Shower, and "feeling pregnant"
well I havent updated in forever. i have done some facebook posts which originally I was trying to stay away from for anyone who doesn't care for pregnancy type posts but if you don't care about Emma then too bad for you, don't read!
Well regardless we now know we have having a beautiful healthy baby girl! At least according to her anatomy scan. the doctor said everything looked great! I think Riley was a little sad and at times may still be holding out a little hope for a boy.. but I am beyond excited for our little princess :) Almost instantly Pink began to take over.
Finally the weekend before my shower we got her room painted in the most beautiful light pink color, matching it the best I could to her bed set. I am so happy with the way it came out. Though its not quite my dream vision from pinterest I LOVEE it!! I am super excited to get her furniture put together in there. It should be done by this weekend then all the fun of decorating and organizing begins!
This past weekend was her shower and all I can say is we are Lucky parents and Emma is one lucky spoiled little girl who is already loved so much. That closet you see there is already backed with shoes, clothes, hairbows and toys. Aside from everything we got at the shower we have had extra packages ariving from friends and family who couldnt be there and I feel so very blessed. I also feel our postman might think we are dealing in stolen goods but atleast some of the stuff is clearly for baby. Right now it looks like we are trying to move out the whole front of our house is filled with boxes.. but really its just emma moving in :)
Tomorrow we get the first half of the shipment of shower stuff. I cant wait to be able to go through it all.
Just about a day away from 25 weeks now and I feel like my belly is just starting to grow. I also feel as though its not growing fast enough for her. She is moving around and kicking like crazy these days. We've had some quiet spells but everything I've read said that they will be more laid back when they are growing. I also know she will be atleast doubling in size between 23 and 27 weeks. I love feeling every single little kick and flutter from her, even when they are uncomfortable. It makes me happy to know she's moving around and doing well! One day she was kicking so hard she kicked my phone right off my stomach!
I cant believe I am so close to my third trimester. The time is literally flying by. Atleast most days. But with that being said the traditional pregnancy symptoms are starting to make their appearance. I already have been getting up in the middle of the night for a few months now for bathroom trips but now its getting harder and harder to be confortable. I've had my first few instances of really bad heartburn but oh by far the worst has been this newly discovered back pain. I thought it was just from traveling because it started after my first flight last weekend... but its not going away. By the time I get home from work I just want to stretch out and cry. I hope its not like this every day for the next three months... My other least favorite is when she sits or stomps just the right way around my bladder to make it feel like its about to explode. Oh its a good thing I already love you so much little miss Emma. But in happier news I also got to feel her hiccups for the first time. I was in the bathtub (attempting to ease the backpain) and my stomach seamed to be twitching I knew it was her but it was too fast to be kicks. It was a very enjoyable moment and it made me so excited for her to be here.
Just about 3 more months (but hopefully only 3 more months so Daddy will still be here)! :)
I will try to add more pictures once her room is slightly more put together!
Well regardless we now know we have having a beautiful healthy baby girl! At least according to her anatomy scan. the doctor said everything looked great! I think Riley was a little sad and at times may still be holding out a little hope for a boy.. but I am beyond excited for our little princess :) Almost instantly Pink began to take over.
This past weekend was her shower and all I can say is we are Lucky parents and Emma is one lucky spoiled little girl who is already loved so much. That closet you see there is already backed with shoes, clothes, hairbows and toys. Aside from everything we got at the shower we have had extra packages ariving from friends and family who couldnt be there and I feel so very blessed. I also feel our postman might think we are dealing in stolen goods but atleast some of the stuff is clearly for baby. Right now it looks like we are trying to move out the whole front of our house is filled with boxes.. but really its just emma moving in :)
Tomorrow we get the first half of the shipment of shower stuff. I cant wait to be able to go through it all.
Just about a day away from 25 weeks now and I feel like my belly is just starting to grow. I also feel as though its not growing fast enough for her. She is moving around and kicking like crazy these days. We've had some quiet spells but everything I've read said that they will be more laid back when they are growing. I also know she will be atleast doubling in size between 23 and 27 weeks. I love feeling every single little kick and flutter from her, even when they are uncomfortable. It makes me happy to know she's moving around and doing well! One day she was kicking so hard she kicked my phone right off my stomach!
I cant believe I am so close to my third trimester. The time is literally flying by. Atleast most days. But with that being said the traditional pregnancy symptoms are starting to make their appearance. I already have been getting up in the middle of the night for a few months now for bathroom trips but now its getting harder and harder to be confortable. I've had my first few instances of really bad heartburn but oh by far the worst has been this newly discovered back pain. I thought it was just from traveling because it started after my first flight last weekend... but its not going away. By the time I get home from work I just want to stretch out and cry. I hope its not like this every day for the next three months... My other least favorite is when she sits or stomps just the right way around my bladder to make it feel like its about to explode. Oh its a good thing I already love you so much little miss Emma. But in happier news I also got to feel her hiccups for the first time. I was in the bathtub (attempting to ease the backpain) and my stomach seamed to be twitching I knew it was her but it was too fast to be kicks. It was a very enjoyable moment and it made me so excited for her to be here.
Just about 3 more months (but hopefully only 3 more months so Daddy will still be here)! :)
I will try to add more pictures once her room is slightly more put together!
Sunday, January 20, 2013
18 weeks
friday we hit the 18 week mark. Sometimes its still hard to believe because I dont always "feel" pregnant yet. I mean yes.. my clothes dont fit, i probably out eat riley now and i certainly have surpassed the amount of times he wakes up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom.. but the little bump is still pretty tiny.. seems extra tiny considering ive already gained 16 pounds!
The suspense is killing me waiting to find out the sex. I had another dream that we somehow found out a week before my appt it was a girl and the shopping sprees commenced. Riley had a dream it was a boy, but still refers to the baby as Emma. Clearly he knows ;) 11 more days. February 1, please get here now.. not to mention that will be another month of deployment complete.
This weekend I've been filled with alot of anxiety. I stupidly read the chapter in the baby book of everything that can go wrong so of course i started worrying about every little thing. I worry about being to small for the baby to grow, the baby not growing at the right rate. I worry about trying to do so much since I have no one else here.
I also started thinking alot about how hard it is going to be doing all this with out him. It freaks me out he may not be in the hospital with me. It freaks me out not knowing alot of things. Im a planner.. which does not co-inside well with military life. Today as I went grocery shopping all I could think is how much harder it will be 6 months from now. Since i cant just send Riley or leave the baby with him. The easiest things will be so much harder. and the pregnancy dreams.. yikes. Ive had a honey badger bite my thumb off, Ive gone to jail, ive been shot in the head and ive lost riley. ive also had dreams the baby was born the size of my hand and that we had the smartest baby ever that started talking at 6 months.
I think deployment in general is starting to wear on me. Ive done my best to be as positive as possible but Im just over waking up alone every day, doing everything by myself. Not having my other half around even just to have a conversation with. I know I have alot more time to go and I know in the end it will be ok but its just one of those days. 2 months down.. too many more to go.
ok i think im done with venting for now. Next update we should finally know for real!
Thursday, January 3, 2013
Second Trimester!
Well I thought blogging about baby wold force me to update more but who would ever thought I would be so BUSY over a deployment Yet here I am at the 16 week (basically 4 moth mark!) and only my second post. I guess working full time, owning a home, having 3 furbabies and the holidays will do that to you!
For starters, I miss Riley like crazy! I cant believe how never ending this deployment will be but im doing my best to stay positive. Thank god for skype and free texting aps!
Anways parents were down here fo pre-holiday festivities. It was great having them and I got the guest room put together just in time! While i was hard at work at work they were hard at working picking out and hanging up curtains and putting together the new entertainment center they got us. (yes i realized we have no pictures of the new house as people continuously asked me over the holiday season so once my cleaning is done ill take some and post them on fb) Everything looks great. Saturday we went to the nex anf Baby M now has furniture! Well.. most of it! Next on my list are the mattress and a rocker.. maybe a small bookself if we have room. Its not put together yet but heres what it will look like:
The nursary its self still needs tons of work. Starting with a paint color. None the less super excited. We also got the baby a blue camo onsie to match daddy. no pictures yet!
Needless to say Baby also made out great over the holidays. Babys first gift came from Heather then was continuously spoiled right through the holidays. Heres a small sample. I hate that it looks "boyish" but really everything can be gender nuetral and dressed up with cute bows!
So far Ive alreayd gained 15 pounds from Baby M (yikes!) but was told today I "wear it well" All of the girls at work noticed however that I seemed to have "popped" while i was gone. Hard for me to tell but here is some pictures of the weeks so far
12 weeks:
14 weeks:
Babys first X-mas shot:
15 weeks:
Official 16 week one will have to follow after tomorrow! My next doctors appointment is Monday and maybe just maybe if Baby cooperates we will know the gender! Will it be Emma or Carter?!
Now there seems to be endless amounts of things to do to keep me busy. Also I got to see Amanda and the other golden girls while at home and saw Baby B's nursary! So pretty! I cant wait to meet her :) Howver it did make me realize just how much still needs to be done so please show yourself on Monday baby so we cant get started!
For starters, I miss Riley like crazy! I cant believe how never ending this deployment will be but im doing my best to stay positive. Thank god for skype and free texting aps!
Anways parents were down here fo pre-holiday festivities. It was great having them and I got the guest room put together just in time! While i was hard at work at work they were hard at working picking out and hanging up curtains and putting together the new entertainment center they got us. (yes i realized we have no pictures of the new house as people continuously asked me over the holiday season so once my cleaning is done ill take some and post them on fb) Everything looks great. Saturday we went to the nex anf Baby M now has furniture! Well.. most of it! Next on my list are the mattress and a rocker.. maybe a small bookself if we have room. Its not put together yet but heres what it will look like:
The nursary its self still needs tons of work. Starting with a paint color. None the less super excited. We also got the baby a blue camo onsie to match daddy. no pictures yet!
Needless to say Baby also made out great over the holidays. Babys first gift came from Heather then was continuously spoiled right through the holidays. Heres a small sample. I hate that it looks "boyish" but really everything can be gender nuetral and dressed up with cute bows!
So far Ive alreayd gained 15 pounds from Baby M (yikes!) but was told today I "wear it well" All of the girls at work noticed however that I seemed to have "popped" while i was gone. Hard for me to tell but here is some pictures of the weeks so far
12 weeks:
14 weeks:
Babys first X-mas shot:
15 weeks:
Official 16 week one will have to follow after tomorrow! My next doctors appointment is Monday and maybe just maybe if Baby cooperates we will know the gender! Will it be Emma or Carter?!
Now there seems to be endless amounts of things to do to keep me busy. Also I got to see Amanda and the other golden girls while at home and saw Baby B's nursary! So pretty! I cant wait to meet her :) Howver it did make me realize just how much still needs to be done so please show yourself on Monday baby so we cant get started!
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