Well I can honestly say I'm sick of waking up to cold and rain. I need to get to jax now. Its making me super depressed, and being depressed makes me think of being lonely with out riley. Cant wait to get to snuggle up with him.. in the AC, cause its in the 80s and 90s there now.
And speaking of being depressed.. I joined the vp45 loved ones group. And I made the mistake of looking through old discussions and old posts form last deployment. Last night it was ok, but when I went on it again this morning I was flooded with emotion. I just completely lost it as I pictured myself going through what they went through. And it made me scared that I wont be able to be there for the welcome home since the navy doesn't recognize me as "family". I think that scares me the most. :( So needless to say, so much for my productive morning. that consumed my energy and my thoughts.
My sadness was mixed with anger on my commute to school this morning. stupid traffic, for construction they weren't doing, considering its raining for the millionth day in a row. Grrr reason # 622 I cant wait to get out of western ma/ new england. 20 daysss... weird i remember when I started counting around 274
Oh life, your really killin me today. Need my snuggle buddy, but ill settle for a skype date :/
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